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10 Days Devotional - Day 10: Longing for Christ’s Return: Eager Anticipation

Day 10: Longing for Christ’s Return: Eager Anticipation

 “They will see His face, and His name will be on their foreheads.” Revelation 22:4 (NIV)

“...now we are children of God, and what we will be has not yet been made know.  But we know that when Christ appears, we shall be like Him for we shall see Him as He is.” 1John 3:2 (NIV)

Have you ever been in a long distance relationship? It was one of the most painful experiences in my life!  It was so difficult to just hang up the phone to say goodbye.  We wanted to stay on the line listening to each other breathe – it was a mess!  It did not matter how often we talked on the phone, wrote an email, or skyped – there was nothing in the world like seeing each other face to face and spending quality time together.  

I recall some years ago as a tourist in Washington D.C., I was awestruck by the grandness of the USA - the most powerful country in the world.  As I stood there gazing at the statue of Abraham Lincoln, I thought to myself... “Jesus cannot return until I fulfill my dreams of becoming a powerful and influential person in the world.”  At that very moment I realized something in my heart that shocked me – I had a love for the world that was greater than my love for Jesus.  

WOW!  How was this possible?  I had been saved for 20 years and was pretty faithful at that time serving in church as an associate minister, leading the youth ministry.  Something was terribly wrong.  It would be 12 years later when I would come into a full understanding of what caused such a huge discrepancy between what I thought I believed and the intentions of my heart.  I truly thought that I loved Jesus and would die for Him.  I now know that I had not yet come to the place of fully following and knowing Him – I had not yet denied myself or taken up my cross.    

There were deep-rooted issues in my heart from years of abuse and rejection that not only created a distorted view of love, but also blocked me from receiving a true understanding of my relationship with Christ.  I found the state of my heart in a similar position to Peter when he so passionately told Christ that he would die for Him only to learn that when the opportunity to give his life presented itself, Peter denied his master without hestiation.  

Peter did eventually give up his life for the sake of the Gospel after coming into a place total submission to the will of Christ for his life.  I am learning that as I totally surrender my life (will, dreams and aspirations) a transformation occurs where my desires become aligned with the heart of the Father and most importantly, I desire Him.  

If you find yourself placing the events or achievements of this world above a desire to be face-to-face with Christ there is a great possibility that you are standing where I stood over 12 years ago.  It is in our surrender and forsaking of this life that we can honestly enter into a pursuit of Christ where He reveals His heart’s desire and fills us with His love.  

I truly understand now why Moses asked God, “show me Your glory, and Paul said, “I want to know Him…” – as we empty ourselves of this world, our only desire is to know Him and make Him known.  It is no longer enough for me to pray to Him during my quiet time and hear His voice.  I want to see Him face-to-face – I eagerly await His triumphant return to establish His everlasting Kingdom upon the earth.   

LaTonya V. Brown,
Watchmen Ministries International